January 11, 2012

Unnatural Aesthetics

Most people tell me that during the changing of the seasons, they smell the next thing coming. I think that that's weird. I smell nothing, I feel the seasons.

Spring feels like the pulse of a heart, pressure that escapes in rainy days and builds in the calm while everything grows. Every gust feels like the grass on the skin and most things are soft and light in the season, like a newborn.

Summer is a grueling time that feels wrong. the air is as damp and moist as the things you touch, your body feels trapped by a wall of wetness and heat that's inescapable. The air feels heavy and burdening.

Fall is like a cracked egg shell, the world seems fake and the atmosphere, brittle. The very ground seems to give way and the environment is dead.

Winter is a time of nothingness. Cold is something you can engage, unlike the other months, nothing is apparent, the world is fake and you feel like a speck of dust in a vacuum without boundaries. The void is piling around you as you wish for a new season will come, but the folds of the land and dunes, masses of snow, captivate your emotions and give you a hedonistic thrill where your eyes give you a sense of beauty from the despair you get from the white blindfold you suddenly are wearing. The unnatural aesthetics of what isn't or shouldn't, shouldn't amaze you, but as a rule, do. This blindfold is fought against, because white turns to yellow and yellow becomes black. A corruption of the curtain angers you, for the grit that was mixed into the mounds are much less appealing, yet necessary. You don't want to touch the surface of the mucky hilltops, you prefer the mountains of pale. You realize that, you are small in the ocean of walls and feel a happiness that you can't explain. Then it slips...

The purity of this world is broken as you welcome in a new era that passes the anguished beauty of the one before just as it becomes tolerable.

January 08, 2012

Doctor's Note

What the internet does to me is only frustrate me. When it takes me 6 hours of negotiating with a machine that's dealing with satellites and a internet company to write one blog post required, for school, it makes me wonder, what's the point? If I cannot do something in a reasonable time, why is it that I should fail. When I write on here, you may not see it, but the pure anger I establish for this website in itself is immense. Right now, these words will probably take me half of the night to say so that I can get a passing grade in a class that only applies to my GPA and not own interest.

The pressure that I get to go to college, which I'll say is inevitable for every single youth these days, is at a point that I know that I must compete with every single other person my age right now and that each mistake that I have ever made sense I was 5 is documented and debated for its significance. The college that I'm forced to buy myself into in a few short years will force me into debt just to get a job that I'll hate if I want money or one that I like, but get little to none. The biggest problem is that no matter what, I can not be taught what I love or what to love. Schools give us no chance to explore our ideas by mashing all the useless stuff together with what matters and saying to us that what we have no care for, whether it be history or math, is as important as the things we love.

I find that it's quite ironic that our greatest renown geniuses were terrible students. I'm led everyday to believe that it is because they understand the importance of education itself that is that we are to learn only what is important, not what isn't. People can live their whole lives not knowing Hitler if they know that it's wrong to believe they are better than others. What bothers me is the complexity of statements like that, that which we aren't taught.

We all know that we should compare ourselves to others, but can you really say that we are in the wrong if you know you're smarter than that cheater sitting next to you that has only learned one thing in school, charisma and how to hide paper. But then again, he's a genius in itself. He found out how to exploit the system so that he can get further in life. He's a man or woman that realized the end goal and took a step to place themselves in advantage with less work. I find it that in our schools, frustrated people are those who are honest, good people, but end up with less to show for it because the exploiter generation born in a climate of competition has outsmarted them. The working man is second to the working-less man because the working-less man realized that his life is controlled by what people look at as good, but can be easily faked.

The simplest fact that I can rest with is that our society thinks that those who make money are those who should be raised on a pedestal for being a great person, while those who make little money are happy with what they got, because they realize that the cliche, money is not happiness, is the truest thing that they know. They still have jobs because they understand the backside to that specific argument; that sometimes, others make us have money. I have a job, solely because if I didn't, my parents would have to pay for everything they are now, plus all the things I'm required to do, like drive to school. If I didn't, my things would become even more outdated. If I didn't, my life would be ruined, because those around me judge me for what I'm not. Since I do, I'm able to have a sensible life where I have what people expect me to and my parents can rest assured that I'll grow up like them.

Knowledge shouldn't define a man, but now, sense that's all people care about these days, it does. I know that when I go to college, I will be forced to take general education classes, where throughout lectures, I will learn meaningless facts about the proper placements of commas and the evolutionary history of mankind. Some will argue that a comma will determine many things and the evolutionary history of mankind proves that we are all the same, but I will argue that even if I don't know where to put a comma, I know how to talk, if i don't know our monkey ancestors, I still know that the only difference between me and another in Brazil is just our thoughts and identity that we cherish, like the white teenager down the street and all of us.

Schooling focuses on what it wishes from us, not what we want from ourselves and through this, a philosophy is developed that we are expected to try and help mankind, even if it means that we will be hapless souls on an unquenchable quest to end what it does to us. No matter what feminism did in the 20th century, there is still sexism and even if women start to earn more and more money, where does that leave men? Are we to be punished, or discriminated against because more and more things have been springing up to woman's aid, saying things like that they are better at cooperating, do better on tests, learn better and are less stressed to name a few (socyberty).

Complex issues require simple answers that attack a root problem. Schools don't say that. Sure they imply it, like in math when teaching how to solve equations and getting a simple/r solution. But this doesn't answer why the problem was there in the first place. Simple answers require creativity and creativity requires that we don't break our children into rationalizing everything. Let there be unknowns, because then we know that there is still a distance left to travel IF we choose to.

Ease of access is what my teacher is trying to do, and I know he will at least scam through this, so I'd like to apologize that I think that this blogging idea is a waste of time when: first, it's so unreasonably long that you either suffer in one class or the rest of them, or that the vagueness of the assignment gives us no real knowledge of our progression, mainly making us not know what to do, putting our minds into unease, because we can't think or a good thing to say. Our minds spin like the gears of a bicycle without a wheel to move us and what you do to provoke the thoughts you want make us pedal harder and go nowhere. Please, give us a wheel, a method, a topic, a hope, a want, an anything to allow us to pedal with results.
Sorry Doctor

-The Observer, a person grounded because of what the establishment thinks is important. 1212 words, 4 hours of trouble and 1 sleepy teen.

What America Is

The fabled "Land of Opportunity" is near its end as Europe and China are catching up with us economically. People have little to no faith in their government here and many people assume the bad and hope for the utopian best.



In the short essay that William P. Meyers wrote called, America: Republic or Democracy? William describes a good portion of what are government is. He says that America is part Republic and part Democracy. Republic in that the president is elected through an electoral college and Supreme Court Justices are appointed, but Democratic in that the people choose who are in congress and many of who have to have part in the state legislature. Near the end he explains the most annoying concept that we have in our politics, that you have  to have money to have power and that those in elections that use the most money are the most popular. What he doesn't say is that in America, those who sponsor the winner, they get preference over other companies and people, and during elections are a major consideration to the candidates because they can't say what they really think because it might cause their sponsors to withdraw their money.

Most people in America think that the government is corrupt and doesn't get things done. According to Infowars, If you state that you think that the US is corrupt or any iteration of this, in South Carolina, you can get some serious jail time. In this article, they quote our Declaration of Independence as the specific evidence against the “Subversive Activities Registration Act” being that this is what our country was based on.

...That whenever any Form of Government becomes destructive of these ends, it is the Right of the People to alter or to abolish it, and to institute new Government...
                             -Declaration of Independence

 This article goes on to quote efoods which say that, "...federal and state authorities now consider the main terror threat to be from informed American citizens exercising their constitutional rights in opposition to the big government agenda they are being subjected to."


This is a map of people's perception of the corruption of their government, RED signifies low percentages and DARK BLUE signifies high percentages of people resenting their government.

The corruption of America is explained as an analogy of a tree in TheTenCommandments.org. America was founded on unrighteous principles, so it's only logical that these principles have grown to new levels that anger people. I definitely don't agree with the parts he goes on to say about churches and conservatives, but his beginning is sound and is a great explanation of what America is. The problem with his idea is that in the late 1800's, people fought for rights in the work place against the government and big business. This age was labeled the Gilded Age in American History explained as a time of materialism and shallowness. The government was corrupt to big players in industry that paid them to help them strive.

On top of our internal problems, the rest of the world is about to become more powerful than us. It's kind of obvious that this scares us. As a superpower, it frighten us  that a communist country is about to overpower us. On top of that, all of Europe is now close to passing us economically.

As we figure out how to help ourselves, I only hope it doesn't grow to war.
-The Observer